December 2008
2008 Concerts.
Top 5 shows of the year? (NOT IN ORDER)
1. Sassy Back Tour
2. Stay Classy Tour
3. Bill and Trav’s Bogus Journey Tour
4. Honda Civic Tour 2008
5. The Bay State at St.Rose
Total number of shows? 10
First show of the year? Paramore/Jimmy Eat World
First show with actual tickets: Paramore/Jimmy Eat World
Last show of the year? The Bay State at St.Rose
Most...
I’ve got five fingers on each hand for every...
It's hard to be real when everyone's watching.
I came to a scary realization about 45 minutes ago.
I’m worried that if I don’t write it down my mind will make myself forget what it knows it needs to remember.
I push people away.
I am terrified of relationships.
No matter how badly I want to fall in love I’ve realized that it scares the hell out of me.
And yes I know I’m not the first person to feel this way.
Duh.
...
Sign this....Please? →
May your organs fail before your dreams fail you.
My head is spinning.
I’m physically exhausted but mentally unable to sleep.
I’m searching for the energy to write it all down but finding none.
I don’t know if I can do it anymore.
Line by line. Someday it'll get finished.
I wear mood swings like them scene girls wear their jeans.
Wrapped up tight and busting at the seams.
I wanna fall in love...
As if I haven’t said that enough.
And you hear it every damn time.
But you want it too.
Part of me is sure you’d act on it
If you only knew the words to say.
Because we all want it.
Something so amazing it knocks us out.
Straight to the ground.
Being struck by lighting has never felt so good hunny.
Because all we are is electric.
Pure and raw.
Surging to be free.
One more...
Everything is white.
Clean and pure.
I’m frozen to the bone.
I’d grip you tighter if my muscles would move.
But this cold made them brittle.
One false flinch and I swear they’ll shatter.
And when I turn crystalline, falling to the ground
Will you be there to pick up the pieces?
Or let me melt when it warms.
If it ever warms.
Because sometimes I worry
That your heart will always be as it is...
Caught between motions.
Good or bad day I can’t decide.
People just seem to get worse and worse.
Things started off pretty good, but crashed not to soon into the day.
But I get by.
Because it’s what I do.
I’ll just listen to goofy covers on repeat and try to laugh more.
If I wasn’t freezing to all hell this would be so much easier.
Thank You.
“haha, lissa. you need to met a boy, yes. that would be lovely. but you need to meet someone that’s gonna treat you like you need tuh be treated. i feel stupid saying this, but whatever. i’ve been waiting to. haha. i think you should find someone who likes the way your hair looks when it’s all messed up, cause you didn’t feel like doing it. and likes the way that sometimes youtypewithnospaces....
My life has become a boring pop song...
I get sick.
But not because I’m sick.
Because I want to cry.
I feel like I’m a disappoint to everyone.
Even the people I try to let in I constantly push out.
I can’t do this anymore.
I break when nobody’s watching.
But I wish you’d all see.
…And everyone’s singing along.
Can't stop, won't stop.
My stomach knots everytime I think.
Because yes, I want to be in love that bad.
Pictures and movies.
Stories and books.
They all have everything I’m waiting for.
But to impatient to ever have.
I may be young.
But age is just a number.
I’ve lived more than you’ll ever even know.
I need...
to find someone.
So I stop tripping up all over you.
WatchMy four favorite people.
If you don’t know who they are, shame on you.
The Bay State
I finished a piece of art I’ve been working on for weeks.
I hate it.
I wear mood swings like them scene girls wear their jeans.
You have a dangerous face.
It’s becoming a nightly routine.
It slips over me and everytime I’m unaware.
Even though I know it’s coming.
I still seem to never know.
Sometimes when I cry I throw up a little.
Please don’t let me fall back into this.
Just when things were starting to look up.
Say I don't wanna be in love, I don't wanna be in...
I’ve got something you lost.
Picture perfect came knocking at my door today.
He said you were old news and he needed something knew.
He said “Baby come one, let’s go for a ride. Let’s get away.”
And I almost took his hand.
I almost ran away today.
But then I remember what he did to you.
How he destroyed you.
And I knew I couldn’t let that happen to me.
...
We're not falling in love, we're just falling...
I make friends just as fast as every other broken heart.
I wait to be dropped just to be picked back up again.
Can you see me where I’m standing?
‘Cause I bet your 20/20 that you’ve seen me all along.
Eyes wide closed.
Shut off from the world.
If you just opened up, you’d be surprised at what you find.
We’re not all half bad.
I eat my wishes on golden tooth picks.
Good-looking boys cause chaos. In the heart, mind, sex drive.I raise you’re black eye a broken heart that says I meant every word I ever said, and can prove everything I ever felt.
What would you say if....
One touch and I’m shaken. A look that keeps me waiting for what we’ll never find. Just ask me to stay and I’ll be here, right where I’ve always been. Where you’ve never missed me, never seen. And when I’m looking at the mirror through my hair I wonder what you see when you’re looking back at me.